(20:09 / Tuesday, May 22, 2007)
Don't You Know Who I Think I Am?
My whole (well, sort of) class slept during heritage trip. Gosh, so did i. I didnt understand two words the person in the video was saying! And its like, after every topic they play such dramatic music which makes us think its ending. Then everyone starts waking up and when they flash the next video we go, 'Ughhhhhhhh'.
Lovely.
Expression of Thought (otherwise known as EOT, Physics assignment) due this Thursday and I haven't started.
Lovely.
POP this Thursday, and the sec4s are going to leave leave leave ): So its two more days (retreats). I DONT WANTTTT.
I love how leadership potential exists every one of a billionth in me. We passed the D&T deadline (technically, we should be dead) long time ago and yayness totally, my group hasnt even handed it up. And of course i dont blame them cause i, as a leader, obviously lacked the initiative to get them to start. Or for starters, get my OWN ass off and start being a little less lazy. And everytime something about a group I'm in screws up, it always happens that I'm the leader. And because of my not-so-hardworking personality, i implicate my group members and even though we will pass eventually, we know its just luck because we scraped. And its because of me.
Did I not try hard enough? Or did I even try?
On weekends when i do last minute work and start rushing out all assignments, or maybe busy contacting group members to get them to do this or that, i always think i am going to explode. But later on when i finish up and lie on my bed i think to myself: Why didnt i just start on schedule? Why didnt i organise and prioritise my time wisely? Instead of SWINGing my day away, or plopping myself in front of the computer immediately after lunch, or continuously playing the same verse from my piano piece because thats the only verse that sounds correct to me, or sitting in front of the TV switching on MTV, or flood my head with 'What If..?' questions, or stare into space and think about life, or taking many pieces of paper and start doodling my day away, or clearing the inbox of my phone, or trying to recall nice songs i heard over the radio, or opening my cupboard and staring at all the disorganised files then deciding about an hour later that i would clear it NEXT time, or sitting on the bed admiring my sister's table wondering how she keeps it so neat, or sitting here typing all these rubbish that a person in the right mind wont read,
WHY DIDNT I START ON MY ASSIGNMENTS?
Life is great.
All the way, hand up the fecking d&t folio, complete EOT and you'll be ready for the month-long holiday!